When You Can't !!!

God has made this world, with so many incidents, lives, needs intermingled with each other. I used to think that thers always some solution to a problem. 

But my beliefs came to an abrupt end, when i recently met a patient. She was a mid 20 something lady. If u wud look at her past, u would say, shes any normal girl going to school, college and so on. She finished her bachelors degree in Arts.

One Day all of a sudden, She had pain in the neck and weakness in the limbs. Her Family being in a village, they wend to some local ayurvedic practitioner. Don't know what he did, but he put some needles in the neck of the girl. And now you see her after about 6 months, shes on a Wheelchair, with her head completely flexed to her chest, she can't lift her head, she can't walk , her hands and feet have become weak. Shes been in the same state since almost 4-5 months. Im not a senior doctor, But the seniors in our hospital assessed her, whether anything can be done for her. But we finally realised her problem had progressed to such a stage, nothing can be done about it. This was their family's last hope, they went everywhere across many states to find a solution for the girl, but same answer everywhere. Ours being a very superior and tertiary hospital, they had high hopes that their girl would be alright. As the girl was waiting after her assessment, she was a bit sedated, but she was talking to me, about how her mother takes care of her everyday, feeds her, helps her lie down on the bed somehow, massages her limbs and neck with oil. As she was talking tears rolled down her eyes. She said , its better to die, rather than living such a painful and dependent life. Even though she was so dependent, she was very brave and confident.

Usually im not that sentimental guy, and being in this profession, ive learnt to be so, but as the girl was talking, I felt really bad and it hurt me to the core, that even with so many medical advancements, we can't give that young girl her life, a life any girl would atleast want, to live with their family, get married, have a happy married life. It hurts to imagine that maybe she would be in such a way her entire life. It hurts to say ' we can't do anything'. 

As i went to the ward today, i saw her in one corner of the ward sitting in her wheelchair, writing something in a notebook. I thought maybe she has good writing skills, she could learn to survive in life. But i din't have the courage to go near her. Then her relatives met me, they were still enquiring, hard to believe that thers no treatment option for her. Her brother told me, that their mother is so upset about her daughter, that hes afraid she might get a heart attack or something... I felt helpless... 

Hope she finds some way to help herself in life.......